I don't really know where I'm going to go with all of this. The path is there, but the "how" definitely needs some developing. A few weeks ago I hosted my first Thirty-One gifts home party with my cousin's girlfriend, Leimakamae (Lei for short). As I prepared for the party I tried to come up with something unique to tell my story. The idea was to tell my story using an acronym. The acronym would spell out my hostess' name, "Lei," which would lead into the next segment of me celebrating her, and thanking her.
The basis of the story was that I had a low in life, and through love and support from family and friends I am where I am at today, and so now it is my turn to reach out and inspire other women, build relationships and encourage others. One of my goals (as most of you know) is to build a steady side income, and so why not couple reaching financial goals with spiritual and relationship goals as well!
Though I completely botched it at the party, and was to shame to share the acronym I came up with - I still wanted to share it with you all. A couple of days later May day rolled around (May day is Lei day in Hawaii) - and just hearing other people talking about what a lei symbolizes - well, it really just drove home for me.
The first month after my break-up, I was at the lowest point in my life. Lower than when my Dad passed away. That low. The only reason why I would even eat was because I knew what the repercussions would be later on if I just completely starved myself. Even at that, one of my dearest co-workers had to make sure I went to lunch with her and my mom had to plan my dinners or else I wouldn't have eaten barely anything. I pretty much cut myself off from all types of entertainment. My house was silent. The car rides into work and back home were silent. I would go to sleep before 10pm and wake up at 4am because I couldn't sleep anymore. Kaimana knew something was wrong with his mama and he poured the love on to me. My heart was completely ripped out of me.
Throughout that whole process I received many lei from family and friends that loved me. They surrounded me, hugged on me, loved on me, embraced me and inspired me. Watch the video below. You can cut to about 1:18 in the video if you're short on time, but in explains the lei that I received.
For me, LEI stands for Love, Embrace and Inspire. My family and friends had to LOVE me back to life. Constant conversations that were repeated many times. Sometimes they were just sounding boards. Other times they repeatedly needed to share tough love with me to help me to climb out of the hole I was in. They embraced me when I felt so lonely and unloved. They inspired me to be the person they knew I was and had the potential to be.
Once I was finally out of that hole, I needed to EMBRACE where I was at in life. ALL AREAS. I had to take a good look at my life and be honest, genuine and real with myself and where I was at, where I wanted to go and how I would get there. Most of those points I've shared in my 2014 Goals series. After realizing where I was, I also needed to actively make changes for the better - truly embracing where I was in my life; and LOVING me just the way I was.
In turn - now I have the opportunity to INSPIRE. Inspire other women to feel empowered to be the best they can be. Inspire women to conquer their fears and reach for the stars. Inspire women to fall down seven times and stand up eight. And so that is where I'm at today. Not too long ago I was "tore up from the floor up", and was so incredibly blessed to receive many lei from friends and family that cared about me. Now it is my turn to lei other women with the same unconditional love and inspiration I was given.
**In the Hawaiian language, plurals are not used. Therefore I chose not to attach the s to lei where you most likely felt there should have been an "s" at the end!